Big Girl Panties

I am fond of the phrase "Put on your big girl panties and SPARKLE". I just love the phrase,  love the idea behind it.  That sometimes we have to do things,  and it might not be the way we wanted,  but we can bring our sparkle to it anyway.

I found myself in that place today.  I am shopping for health insurance,  and of course,  my awesome Endocrinologist only takes these plans that I can't afford.

Rather than be upset.  I find myself putting on my big girl panties,  picking the one that is best for me in my price range, get to work in that coaching so I can afford the one I want. It is an attitude.  Knowing I can change the variables in that equation,  namely what I can and can't afford in the future.

I have had this overall mindset change.  I tend to take a longer view to everything.  Very few things in my life are set in stone.  Even those few things are set in stone because I want them to be.  This is what being in control of my life feels like.

I am wearing my big girl panties,  and i am sparkling! I am genuinely pleased to have resolved the insurance issue. No,  I don't have the original specialist I wanted,  but I do still have my primary care Dr who will keep me in good health until I get a new specialist and that is MORE than I started with!  #AttitudeOfGratitude

Attitude of Gratitude

Today, I am grateful for my brother-in-law. Dad is sick in the hospital,  he has done what every eldest child does,  steps in to take charge and handle the situation.  I am glad that he is empowered to do that.   His "bossy" manner can be annoying at times but i need to be grateful for that same bossiness because life is full of moments like this. I am also glad that while our relationship is not sunshine and rainbows,  I also don't think it is as contentious as it once was. We clash because we are eldest children and bossy!  It is what we have in common! At the end of the day,  I appreciate him as he truly is!  Underneath all the priggish bravado, he is a nice guy the way my husband is,  just a quality human being who tries to do the right thing in any given situation.

Attitude of gratitude

Today I am grateful for my friend Rashawn! We were once romantically  involved but it was not the right time for either of us. I still cherish that friendship!  I appreciate his sense of humor, geeky and sarcastic and he can always make me laugh. I appreciate his sense of social justice,  that he shares this with the world! He had opened my eyes to injustices I had not noticed with my sometimes place of privelege. Although he knows it not,  he is always been a place of safe emotional harbor for all his friends.  A loving and caring dude to his core! I wish this friendship to lay to the end of our days!

Attitude of Gratitude: July 5th, 2015

Today, I'm thankful for my daughters! All five of them! They inspire me to keep moving forward in my quest to always be better! For Ray, for never giving up - no matter how off the rails things have gotten, she's never given up! For Nadja, for always trying to stay true to herself, even though she is still discovering who that is, she embraces her own self discovery! For Jaedah, for her quiet strength, reminding me that strength is not always sound and fury, but sometimes quiet acceptance and just going forward with it. For Lashara, for being the best of both her parents! For Helen and her never ending energy and zest for EVERYTHING! They are more than just those five sentences, but I could be here all night if I didn't draw the line somewhere.